No matter how hard we try to stay focused and in the right direction, we can always be presented with obstacles that cause us to want to shy away from what is right. It is up to us to know and have the strength to keep ourselves facing the Lord. Last night I was faced with having to fighting one of my many demons. I was in the middle of reading, praying, and worshipping him when I got distracted by the infamous social networking. That distraction led me to more distractions. And before I knew it I was sitting on my bed reminiscing about something that causes me to feel down and depressed. Thinking and pondering this situation brings up several other things that bother me. Before you know it this beautiful moment of solitude has now turned into an ugly blow to my ego and heart. I then had the sudden urge to be completely drunk. Not just have a drink to mellow out. I mean completely smashed. This has been my outlet in the past. I went back and forth in my head. I kept trying to justify my premeditated action by saying “just a little won’t hurt”, “God will forgive you tomorrow”, and “It’s not like you stopped believing in him, you just need a little help to numb the pain.”

As I am standing there dang near keys in hand something came over me and stopped me. In the moment I couldn’t even tell you what that was. I then got distracted again. And in just moments I was back with music in my ears heading off to la la land. I definitely had to give grace to God for being with me and getting me through that. It may not seem like a huge deal to most people. Because don’t get me wrong there is nothing wrong with consuming an adult beverage. I do enjoy a glass of wine or a beer. It’s not solely the act of drinking as it is the “why am I drinking”.  I am doing this to subdue the pain and forget. I am not stopping and allowing God to heal my heart and help me through this moment. That is where the sin lies. Proverbs 3:6 says “In all thy ways acknowledge him and he shall direct thy paths.” If we allow him to do his job things will get done. He will provide, protect, restore, and anything else we may need. We just have to allow him to do so. Give God the opportunity to work in our lives. Also praise him for everything he does and will do. Let go, let God.

All in all I have to be honest with myself if I would have gone with my original plan I would have felt terrible this morning.  Along with heartache I would have a hangover, terrible day, and just all around yucky -ness? Instead I woke up feeling refreshed, energized, blessed, and ready to take on the day. And despite this gloomy rain it has been a wonderful day. There is only one I can thank for that. Thank you Jesus, you have done it again.

There is no perfect one person. Although there is a perfect soulmate for each and everyone of us. Even if we choose to believe otherwise. They are out there. And when we find them we need to except their whole being. They are who they are because that is the way God made them. It is not our responsibility to change them. Now of course the deeper the relationship becomes some compromises must be made in order to make the unit work. Key word COMPRISES!!! That must be understood by both parties. In any relationship from the first date all the way up to the 10 year anniversary and beyond keep it fresh, fun, interesting, loving, and faithful. Things will be just fine. They won't be perfect, but they will be perfect for the both of you. 

Love

"Faith will sit at a table with the impossible like it's nothing."

What a great way to start my blogging with such a great quote. I was visiting a church today New Birth (https://www.newbirthcal.org/) in Pittsburgh, CA. I have got to tell you what an amazing sermon. I went with a complete open mind and boy am I glad I did. The word was just saturated in me. 

It is very common for we as humans to talk and talk about how much faith we have in something. How much "we believe". But when it comes down to it, do we really? Are we really whole heartedly faithful? Or only when it's convenient? We very often seem to stand solid by our faith when times are on our side. When the wind is blowing in our direction, so to speak. However, when the storm gets to be too rough to stand in that's when we turn our back on what has brought us thus far in this world. Instead of being mad at Him for not coming through when you asked. Look to Him and just believe. "He may not come when you want him to, but he is always on time." 

Sometimes, we are asking for the wrong things. Did we ever think about that? Yes an umbrella would be so much easier in a rain storm. But all you need is to stop from getting wet. Won't a trash bag do the trick? How about a cardboard box? Or rather a book to keep our face dry? Yes our God is an awesome and almighty God! He is bigger and greater than anything on and off of this earth. He can more than provide more than we can ever dream of. We just have to trust and believe that he knows what he's doing. He will provide as needed and when the time is right. He will never leave us hanging. Although it may seem that way at times. He has not forsaken us. He never will. 

So in your time of need and struggle I challenge you to just believe and know AWESOME things are coming. We also need to praise and thank him when things are good. Not just run to him when times are bad. "If you are not looking up and thanking him when times are good, you can not be angry when times are not the best." 

Have a great upcoming week. Speak life to any situation you are facing. Believe he is there. LET GO AND LET GOD.

Trust in the LORD forever, for the LORD GOD is an everlasting rock. Isaiah 26:4